"ATLAS" - Natalie Ceva

 

So it appears my words have lost their ink

Cactus dry my mind fights defeat

And it seems the road we choose was moss covered

and overgrown

I’m tired of rolling away stones

I’m tired of rolling away stones

Fits and starts are what we know

Tired of the weight, the push the pull

Throw me an atlas and I’ll color my own

Throw me an atlas and

I’ll conquer the unknown

Lately our world has lost its spin

The all-telling signs lie in the stillness of the race we’re in

Here I’ve found our life has lost its beat

Our hearts gave up on the lives we lead

Throw our hands up in defeat

Throw our hands up in graceful defeat

Fits and starts are what we know

Tired of the weight, the push the pull

Throw me an atlas and I’ll color my own

Throw me an atlas and I’ll conquer the unknown

An orange sun peels away the black’s night

Is anyone up to see this side

The cities eyes are steel where the diamonds shine

I’m a little tired of the light

I’m a little tired of the light

A vacant smile gets me by

A vacant smile got me by

Fits and starts are what we know

Lighten the weight, release the push, un-hinge the pull

Throw me at atlas I’ll

color my own

Throw me an atlas, I’ll conquer the unknown

The unknown, I’ll conquer the unknown

On my own, on my own, I’ll roll away the stones

On my own, I’ll conquer

the unknown

On my own


"BONE MARROW" - Natalie Ceva

 

As the night takes its shape, My wine fades away

And in its place my sorrows tumble And fill to the brim

Here I am I’m alone again, without you

Here I am I’m alone again

I run away

My heart feels heavy As it falls away from yours

My heart feels heavy As it tears away

My heart feels empty As it cuts the cord from yours

You’ve burrowed so deep

You live in my bone marrow

You live in my bone

I live the life of a ghost, Watch me go

I wanna know how to stay, But I’m restless

You’re the only thing that kept me here And now you’re gone

You’re the only thing that kept me sane

And now it’s all changed

And now it's all changed

My heart feels heavy As it falls away from yours

My heart feels heavy As it breaks away

My heart feels empty As it loses yours

You’ve burrowed so deep

You live in my bone marrow

You live in my bone

It cuts through the bone.. yeah

You cut through the bone

These words won’t ever escape me

You live in my veins

You live in my veins

You’ll never leave me

You gotta escape me

But you’ve cut so deep

You live in my bones You live in my bones

You live in my bones


"BREAK ME OUT" - Natalie Ceva

 

The walls are slowly closing in

Encroaching my space

The air heavy hot and thick

Unbearable to take

The ground engulfing my feet again

Treading quicksand

The chance is now I gotta get out, I gotta get out   

So break me out let me escape

I’m so tired of this place

Break me out free my chains

Let me out of this cage

Break me out, I gotta get out

The only chance I have is now

Climb out through the shattered window

The roof is caving in

Can’t ignore the itch

Deep in my skin deep in my skin

Escape the normalcy

The madness, doesn’t anyone see

The chance is now I gotta get out , I gotta get out

So break me out let me escape

I’m so tired of this place

Break me out free my chains

Let me out of this cage

Break me out, I gotta get out

The only chance I have is now

I feel the crowd now slowly closing in

Quick cut the rope tethered to the ground

Clip me free

So break me out, free my chains

Won’t you set me, set me free

Free my soul, can’t ignore the itch

Deep in, deep in my skin

The roof is caving in

So break me out I gotta get out

The only chance I have is now


"FOLD OR FIGHT" - Natalie Ceva

My birds eye view finally made it to the top

Your garbage spewed all over my black top

You’re just no use too much to clean up

Your inner monster climbing out of its cage

Taking over body and soul only you can stop its roll

 How could you let it get this far I was your home

Instead you broke my bones with your sticks and stones

How could you let it get this far

At the end of our tunnel, there is no light

I should have never asked If you were gonna fold or fight

For all your talk you don’t have much to say

You never did learn to listen static has paved our way

You have really dulled my senses Poked Jabbed stuck me to the bone

You no longer light my fire You no longer ignite my soul

How could you let it get this far I was your home 

Instead you broke my bones with your sticks and stones 

How could you let it get this far

At the end of our tunnel, there is no light 

I should have never asked If you were gonna fold or fight 

The thing is you’re so broken

Unmanageable pieces too small to make whole

My time is better spent alone

Than with you drillin holes in my skull

How could I let it get this far I was your home 

Instead you broke my bones with your sticks and stones 

How could I let it get this far

At the end of our tunnel, there is no light 

I should have never asked If you were gonna fold or fight 

 My birds eye view

I lost my voice with you

You painted black the world

You painted black the world that I knew


"HIGH HOPES" - Natalie Ceva

Her high hopes

Her highest hopes

They fall down

Gently kiss the ground

Her high hopes

Her highest hopes

They smash down

Scatter to the ground

And doesn’t it feel a little too heavy

Too heavy I cant breathe

And doesn’t it feel a little too heavy

Too heavy I cant breathe

I can’t breathe

Too heavy I cant breathe

Her high hopes

Standing so tall

She won’t admit

She’s never felt so small

Careful now

Feel the wind blow

Knock her off her feet

Pray for parachute wings

And doesn’t it feel a little too heavy 

Too heavy I cant breathe 

And doesn’t it feel a little too heavy 

Too heavy I cant breathe 

I can’t breathe

Too heavy I cant breathe 

Tumble endlessly

This ladder leads to nowhere fast

I’m so worn out- grasping, holding on

Hanging from high hopes

Her high hopes

Her highest hopes

They fall down

Gently kiss the ground

Her high hopes

Her highest hopes

Doesn’t it feel And doesn’t it feel

A little too heavy I might sink

And doesn’t it feel a little too heavy

And doesn’t it feel a little too heavy

Too heavy, I can’t breathe


"YOU'RE MY RELIGION" - Natalie Ceva

Looking back I was so naive

Headstrong to the bone

Playin tough to hide my weakness

You saw right through me

I don’t know you caught me what do I do now

You’re the twist at the movie’s end

Look what you’ve done to me

Dear God, I’ve written a love song

You’re my religion

You’re what I believe in

I lay my armor down at your feet

You’re my story

New words become me

Rewrite my ending

You’re my religion

So I think I’d like to take off my coat

And I’d like to stay awhile

You pulled the best out of me

My shell comes crumbling down

Throw away the masks I played

The characters I became

I don’t look back now I stand on solid ground

You’re my religion 

You’re what I believe in 

I lay my armor down at your feet 

You’re my story 

New words become me 

Rewrite my ending 

You’re my religion 

 I never was one for fairytales or storybook endings

Throw down my hair and catch the best thing...nah

But now I finally get what Hollywood writes about

What they’ve been singing out loud

I didn’t believe ‘til now… ‘cus

You’re my religion

You’re what I believe in

I lay my armor down at your feet

You’re my story

New words become me

Rewrite my ending

You’re my religion